You may not see them but the ships are out in the harbor and the bay looks great!

This is the view from Chris' penthouse room at the Vancouver General Hospital 9th floor.  His bathroom has 2 windows, floor to ceiling. He can sit on the toilet and admire False Creek!

Yes, I wish I could have a room view like that. But, I have managed to secure rooms at either the Best Western Uptown on Kingsway, or the Holiday Inn on Broadway.  Both have super rooms, great facilities and familiar surroundings.

If we have to be scared, and I know I am, then being scared in Vancouver is better than being in scared in Quesnel.  Here the transplant team is on top of every test, every decision.  We may have to wait for tests, but the tests take 24 hours not the 7 to 10 days of Quesnel labs.  Dr. Noel Alnahdi (sorry for bad spelling has been very helpful/informative and supportive.  She reviewed the biopsy results within 24 hours and identified the start of rejection in Chris.  We have been watching Chris' "numbers", and along with the new biopsy, everything confirms that his liver is under "attack".  Hence, the solumedrol (steroid) iv that Chris has had to have for the last 3 days (1 hr by iv).  Unfortunately that means that Chris will start all over again with the diabetes treatments, poor eyesight, bad sleep patterns, etc.  We hope he can hang in there until we get home for his insulin.

Worried - not really. So why the stress? Why am I feeling so overwhelmed and under attack? The fight or flight reaction is fully charged! I am ready to explode. This is ridiculous. I really need to get my head/heart/emotions back on track.

Prayers! That is what I need to refocus on. Prayers!

Normally, it's easy for you to narrow your concentration. Now, however, your imagination widens your vision as rational Mercury harmonizes with surreal Neptune. This heightened awareness enables you to see yourself in new ways, especially with respect to your job or daily routine. Choose your destination wisely and dream up a path that takes you there.

This was my horoscope for today. No wonder I am so “out there”. I cannot focus on what needs to be done. At least I did the necessary stuff – ie. Go to office and work on financial statement styles with Robyn.

 Now I just see creativity – mini scrap albums from scratch – art journaling – fancy cards etc. So where is my energy to make my scrap room look better? Hmm – at the bottom of the wine bottle? That is a scary image for me. I love my wine, but it must not take the place of the things I love.

So water plants, enjoy outside and music and wine - but, get inside to my scrap room and start to organize the bags of goodies I have collected. I can do it!